Ow.

So we put our houseguest on the plane for home this morning.  It was a 6 am flight, so after dropping him off the recommended 2 hours early, we had plenty of time before I had to get ready for work.  We've been talking about how we could reintroduce DD into our lives, and we were giddy at the thought of a few hours of privacy after so long without it.

I went into the kitchen for a drink, and when I came back to the bedroom I found the pillows all arranged in 'the position'.  I arranged myself and braced for my first spanking in months. 

And J certainly made up for lost time.  My behind was tender after my prolonged rest, and the 2 short barehanded sessions (2 minutes and 3 minutes) had me howling.  J told me to get up in the bed where I belonged, then lay down with me and took me in his arms.  My sobs reduced to sniffles as he stroked and patted me, and I slowly began to feel again the warm, safe feeling of knowing that he had taken charge and everything was all right.
Once I was able to listen calmly, J began telling me how we'll be implementing 'boot camp'.  I'll be receiving a maintenance spanking every morning, as well as random spankings through the day when he feels like it.  These are in addition to any punishment spankings J feels are necessary.  He will require me to show my submission to him in other ways, such as being sexually available to him on demand.  We'll be working out more details of chores and routines for me (something I desperately need) as well as a few basic rules.  J has promised that I will be corrected immediately now when I upset him, rather then our current pattern where he acts as though nothing is wrong while inwardly seething.  Oh, and I'm not allowed to say the word 'no'; to reinforce that I take direction from him, I need to find other ways to express a negative if it's absolutely necessary.

This represents a radical change for both of us.  I'm an oldest child, used to telling people what to do and acting independently.  J is a typical middle child who 'gets along', always putting his needs and wants second to others'.  We hope this new program will help us both develop our strengths and work on our shortcomings, and ultimately lead to a fuller appreciation of each other and a stronger relationship.

Let's start over

It's been a crazy few months.  We've relocated to a new state so that J can attend school.  We downsized our living space from 1800 sqft to 650 sqft.  My son planned to stay in our old state, but at the last minute totaled his car and came with us.  After two weeks he decided he hated it and moved back.  So...yeah.  There hasn't been much time for 'us' or TTWD.  We've been talking about it, though, and making our plans to resume.  And now that we're empty nesters, privacy won't be an issue any more (as soon as J's cousin leaves after his 2 week visit).

I'm surprised to find how much I miss my spankings.  I think for me the biggest benefit is the release of tension and negativity; I want to control and arrange everything and everyone around me, and fret when I can't.  Being completely out of control and under J's authority lets all of that go and I can relax again.  I'm looking forward to our first maintenance session in a long time.